Give your gifts in service to the world…

We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?
Marianne Williamson
A Return to Love

For months I’ve been working on launching the website for my consulting work. It is still semi-completed.

I originally planned to have it done before I started consulting in January,  but in all the hectic chaos of finishing up the last few months at my job it was impossible to find time.

Then I went away for a month to spend time with my family. My intentions to have it up in the first few weeks after my return had to be temporarily shelved when I returned from vacation to a flooded house and being temporarily homeless.

Another month was dedicated to finding a new place to live and salvaging my stuff.

Then I was moving in and organizing myself.

Then I started working. I was suddenly inundated by new clients and projects and I didn’t have time to work on it.

The past few weeks I’ve worked on it quite a bit, but I’ve been vacillating over design themes and colors and layouts and wording.

Yesterday one of my clients asked me for resume.  I haven’t updated it since the last time I interviewed for a job several years ago.

My heart sank as I pulled up the last version I could find and began to revise it.

It was agonizingly painful.  What to say about myself?

I was frustrated that I didn’t have more interesting things to say. Kept thinking I haven’t done enough. I don’t know enough. I’m not clever enough. Not talented enough.

Wait a minute! I stopped myself and thought about it. Really thought about it.

It’s not true. I know this. Really I do.

It occurred to me that this is what the hold up with completing the site has really been about. My being afraid to own my fabulosity and put it out there for all the world to see.

Why are we so afraid to shine?

In my heart I  know that I know a lot. I know that I am passionate and believe in what I’m doing. I know that I am learning and growing everyday and I know that I put my heart into doing the work I care about and believe in.

Above all, I know that as we all are, I am blessed with many talents and gifts.

I need to claim these gifts and talents, because until I do I can’t give them in service to the world.

That’s what they’re for after all. That’s why I am here. To give my gifts in service to the world.

Another reminder from the universe duly noted.

Let yourselves shine people. You are fabulous and gorgeous and talented. Own it and share it with the world. That’s what you’re here to do!