#reverb10 Day 2: Writing

December 2 Writing.
What do you do each day that doesn’t contribute to your writing — and can you eliminate it?
(Author: Leo Babauta)

Not writing.

Avoiding  myself.   And yes, I do this each and every day.

Writing is scary. It is a conversation with myself, and perhaps I am afraid of what will come out if I write consistently.

I am afraid of the known and the unknown. Of the untapped depths of my own mind and soul.

I am afraid of all the emotions, traumas, hopes, dreams, failures, and desires which litter the house of my psyche. Of all that is stuffed under seat cushions, swept under rugs,  shoved into closets and piled in corners. I am afraid that the writing will unleash something that I will not be able to contain nor avoid. That once the lid is off it will all come gushing, pouring , roaring out and I will drown in it. Perhaps it will all be too much. Too hard, too sad, too frightening. Too much. Too impossible.

I suppose it might also be too beautiful. Too powerful and wise and strong and sublime.  That seems just as frightening.

Can I eliminate it?

I suppose.

I can sit down every day with myself and let it all come up and out. Better out than in – isn’t that what “they” say?

I can just write.

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